Has anyone ever been in a situation like this?

Ok I love a married man. PLEASE do not dog me...I know its not right but I cant help that I love him.. I am sorry to tell you that, We have messed around and I have told him I love him. He isnt one of those married men who lie and just tell u what u want to hear to get in your pants either. He told me that he really likes me when I asked him that. I am so attracted to him and I feel like he is my soulmate of another generation since I am 14 yrs younger than him. Me 21 and him 35. I have NEVER EVER in my life felt this way about someone and I know these are true blue feelings. We have already established that we are gonna be friends with benefits pretty much, It was his choice also... so its not all my fault. I am not trying to have a relationship with him,,, i know its not gonna happen, we just wanna do the benefits part and yes I want to do it too. It might cause me heartache and I know its all wrong but I love him. Has anyone ever been in a situation like this?